I am tired. Like so many families here in the lower mainland things are getting hard and unmanageable. Things are getting more and more expensive and when I say that I mean solely the cost of rent. I can’t tell you how much it has gone up and how horribly unfair things are being priced. Life in Vancouver as a young family is becoming impossible.
Our family is only still in this area because we decide to spend nearly 70% of our income on rent… barely scraping by with enough for everything else we need. And you want to know the cruel irony of all this?? It is at the point where we have zero savings and that means it would be financially impossible to leave and it is becoming impossible to stay all at the same time. There is no way, having no car or truck to move our family, that we could even afford a truck to move out of town.
I am writing this as old news, I know this. But I want to get this out. I feel so frustrated and I feel like I am constantly drowning. I feel like my kids are too aware of our struggles and I feel angry at how much I rely on my in laws to help us survive.
I am lucky. I have help, but they shouldn’t have to help. I am close to my thirties and I should be able to do this.
But we are drowning.
We are drowning and I don’t know how long we can keep this up. We are a paycheck away from being homeless or one medical emergency away from financial ruin. We will make it though, we have been resilient for 13 years together – we can do it for another 50 years, I know it. I just wish this wasn’t so draining and I could live here and enjoy this city rather than work here to make sure my kids get to stay here while we watch others loving all this city has to offer. I feel like a spectator in my own city and in my own life sometimes.
We love it here, I have been here my whole life and I couldn’t really see myself anywhere else unless you want to add far off exotic places to that list. Which lets face it isn’t going to happen unless I win the lottery.
This city is beautiful, it has everything and it is home. So why can’t there be a way for us to stay here? Why can’t there be a better way for us to make this work.
Like so many have said before me, only time will tell to be honest.
This too shall pass… I hope.